Abandon All
Read slowly, aloud; fifteen to eighteen minutes.
Before you begin. This practice works with the sense of self. Do not use it unsupervised if you have experienced depersonalisation, derealisation, a dissociative disorder or psychosis, or if you are in a period of acute grief or depression; use it with a clinician. Never practise while driving or operating anything. Sit upright with your feet on the floor.
How to return at any moment. If at any moment the sense of self feels unsafe rather than spacious, open your eyes, press your feet down, say your name aloud, and stop. That is always allowed.
Sit, and let the breath settle. Let each out-breath be a little longer than the in-breath.
Ask inwardly the question Kaca asked: how is this spirit set free?
And hear the first answer: abandon all. Notice what you instinctively reach to drop. Possessions, roles, people, plans.
Imagine you have dropped them all, as Kaca dropped his bark garment. Rest there a moment. Notice that the one seeking peace is still here.
Breathe out.
Now, for three breaths, try to abandon the mind itself. Try to stop thinking. One. Two. Three. Notice that the trying is more mind.
Let the trying go.
Now turn, gently, and look for the one who was trying. Where is it? Where is its edge? Look as you would look for a second moon in the sky: carefully, and without fear of what you will not find.
If something answers, notice it. If nothing answers, notice that too.
Let attention widen to the space in which thoughts appear. Let it widen to the room. Sense that space in the leaves of the trees outside, in the fruit, in the air. You are in all of it.
Rest here, for as long as it is comfortable.
(Silence: one to three minutes.)
Now recall, with gratitude, a teacher or guide who came back for you.
Now return. Feel the edges of the body again: the seat, the feet, the hands. Let the body feel like a good and trusted home.
One: the breath deepens. Two: move the fingers and toes. Three: the sounds of the room. Four: a full breath in, stretch. Five: eyes open, alert, clear.
Say your name, the day and the place. Name three things you can see and one thing you can touch. Sit a moment, drink some water, and do not drive for ten minutes.