The Guest at the Hermitage
Read slowly, aloud, with a breath between lines; ten to twelve minutes.
Before you begin. This is a light, eyes-closed reflection. It is safe for most adults. If you are in acute crisis, or have a history of psychosis or dissociative disorder, use it only with a clinician. Do not practise while driving or operating anything. Sit upright.
How to return at any moment. Open your eyes, feel your feet, and look around the room; nothing in the practice requires you to stay.
Sit down, and let the breath settle by itself.
Imagine a clearing on a mountainside, quiet, a small hut of leaves at one edge. This is the place you went to escape the pain. It may be a routine, a discipline, a way of holding yourself apart. Look around it.
Notice its pots and staffs: the props you rely on. Name two of them silently.
Now someone comes into the clearing. Let them come in a form you would not expect: young, perhaps, and full of light, someone you would not ordinarily take advice from. Let them come.
Rise to meet them. Offer them a seat, as the king offered leaves and flowers. Courtesy first.
The guest says: tell me the bare truth about yourself.
So tell them, plainly, inside: how long you have been here, and what it has cost.
Breathe out.
Now ask the question of the kuśa grass: which of my efforts flowers every season and never bears fruit? What is it missing?
Let the guest answer in one sentence. Do not argue with it. Hear it as you hear music, without asking for its reason or its rhyme. If tears come, let them come.
Now the guest asks you the one question Kumbha asked: what am I? Notice what answers. Do not fix it.
Thank your guest. Choose one prop you no longer need, and set it down in the clearing. You can leave it there.
Now come back. Feel the seat under you, and the floor.
One: the breath deepens. Two: the hands and feet are your own. Three: the sounds of the room return. Four: a full breath in, the shoulders move. Five: eyes open, alert, rested.
Say your name, the day and the place, and name three things you can see. Sit a moment before you stand.