Seed and Harvest
Read slowly, aloud; about fifteen minutes. Sit upright.
Before you begin. This practice examines a wish; it does not install one. If you are recently bereaved, or have thoughts of joining someone who has died, do not use it alone; speak with a clinician. If you live with a psychotic or dissociative illness, practise only with professional support. Never practise while driving, operating anything, or in or near water.
How to return at any moment. Open your eyes, press your feet into the floor, and say your name and the date aloud.
Sit as he sat, under trees on a hill, at ease. Let the breath settle. For a moment, notice that nothing is lacking. The air, the seat, the light. Rest in that.
Now let a procession pass below. Something you have admired in another person's life: their work, their house, their ease, their love. Watch it go by. Notice the first thought, the one that says, Oh, how charming.
Let the wish unfold, as his did, in detail. The rooms. The people. The scent on the air at the end of the day. Notice what happens in the body as it grows: warmth, tightening, a lean forward.
Now watch years stream out of that one moment. The choices it made for you. The effort. The world it has built around you, room by room.
And now step back to the doorway of a small house, and look in. The whole kingdom fits inside it. It has lasted, by the clock outside, eight days.
Notice too who in your life holds you in place out of love and fear, and whom you hold. Let there be room for everyone to move.
Now choose, freely: keep the wish, refine it, or let it go back into the open sky. Any of the three is yours to choose.
(Silence: one minute.)
Come down the hill, slowly.
I will count from one to five, and on five your eyes open.
One. The breath is full and ordinary.
Two. Feel your feet and your weight on the seat.
Three. The sounds of the room return.
Four. Move your hands; take one deeper breath.
Five. Eyes open. Here. Now. Fully alert.
Say your name aloud, the day and the place, and name three things you can see. Then name one thing you already have, as the brahmin had before the procession passed. If you feel heavy or sad, stand, drink some water, and speak with someone before going on.