The Pilgrim's Return
Read aloud, slowly; about fifteen minutes, seated.
Before you begin. This practice meets weariness and closes the eyes on purpose. If you are low in mood most days, or have thoughts of not wanting to live, bring it to a clinician rather than practising alone. Do not use it alone if you have a dissociative disorder. Never practise while driving, operating anything, or in or near water.
How to return at any moment. Open your eyes, press your feet into the floor, and say where you are.
Let the breath come as it comes.
You are walking a long road in heat. Feel the weariness honestly: the sun on the shoulders, the dry mouth, the wish to rest anywhere at all.
Someone falls into step beside you. Calm. Unhurried. He greets you: may all be well with you, fellow traveller.
And he says, you have already come to the path of wisdom. You have very nearly crossed. Let the tiredness be felt differently now, as the tiredness of someone close to the shore.
Now take one craving you know well. Trace its four roots. The thing seen. The dwelling on it. The wanting. The picture of having it. Notice which link is loosest. Let it loosen.
Now the eyelids. If they are open, let them close slowly. Notice how, as they close, the visible world goes out. Let awareness close the same way, to the sights outside, to the thoughts that follow them. Gently. As if lids were lowering inside, too.
Feel the old identity of the seeker loosen, and slide off, as a snake slips out of a skin it has outgrown.
Rest here, still as a stone, and awake within, a lamp lit inside the stone.
(Silence: one to two minutes.)
Now walk down from the mountain, the last stretch of road, to your own door. Open it.
Feel the feet. Feel the breath. Feel the seat beneath you.
One. The breath full and ordinary.
Two. Hands and feet warm and your own.
Three. Sounds of the room.
Four. Stretch, and lift the head.
Five. Eyes open. Fully alert.
Say your name, the day and the place, and greet the room: name three things you can see. If you feel heavy or far away, stand, walk to the door of the room and back, drink water, and count again from one to five.