Shade for the Deer
Read slowly, aloud, leaving a breath between lines; about fifteen minutes.
Before you begin. This practice is safe for most healthy adults. If you have, or have had, a psychotic illness, a dissociative disorder or trauma involving being hunted or trapped, practise it only with a clinician who knows your history. If you are severely depressed, use it only for rest and leave out the view from the high branch. Never practise while driving, operating anything, or in or near water. Sit rather than lie down.
How to return at any moment. Press your feet into the floor, say "Back to the ground", take one full breath, count from one to five, and open your eyes on five.
Sit, and let the eyes close or rest on a point in front of you.
Somewhere in you there is a regret: a small sense that things are not as they could be. Do not argue with it. Let it be a seed. Let it fall into the ground of the heart.
Remember one kind voice. Let what it said fall on the seed like dew. Remember one sentence of wisdom that has stayed with you. Let it water the ground.
Set a fence around the seed: perseverance. At the gate post two guards, contentment and cheerfulness. Notice the birds that come: it should be working by now… am I doing this right? Let the guards wave them off. The seed is safe.
Now watch it grow. A sprout. Two leaves. A stem that stands firm, a bark of patience. Branches spreading: truth, steadiness, calm, kindness. Leaves of peace. And a shade, cool, wide, like a cloud over a hot field.
Somewhere at the edge of the field is a deer. It has run a long way. Its mouth is sore from thorns. It has fallen into pits and climbed out. Let it see the shade. Let it come in. Nothing follows it here. Let it lie down. Breathe out.
Now the breath. With each slow out-breath, imagine a small flame inside you brightening, as a fire brightens when someone blows on it, with no fuel needed. Breathe out… brighter. Breathe out… brighter. Breathe out.
If you wish, climb a little way into the tree, one branch at a time. From here look at your own fears and hopes and old habits as actors on a small stage below. Let them play. You are watching. Your eyes may rest on anything; you need not long for it.
(Silence: one to three minutes.)
Now leave the deer resting in the shade. It knows the way here.
Climb down, branch by branch. Feel the ground under your feet. Feel the seat holding you.
I will count from one to five. One: the breath grows fuller. Two: the hands and feet are warm and your own. Three: the sounds of the room return. Four: a deep breath in, shoulders roll once. Five: eyes open, here, now, fully alert.
Say your name, the day and the place aloud. Name three things you can see. If you feel slow, count again from one to five, stand, and drink some water. Wait ten minutes before you drive.