The Witness in Action
Ten to fifteen minutes. Choose beforehand one task you freeze before.
Before you begin. This is a light-trance rehearsal practice. Do not use it if you often feel detached from your body or unreal, or if the task involves harm to anyone; speak to a clinician instead. If combat or violence is part of your history, choose a task with no conflict in it. Sit upright. Never practise while driving or operating anything.
How to return at any moment. Open your eyes, press your palms together, name the room and the day.
Sit, and name the task. See it in front of you, as Arjuna saw the two armies. Notice where in the body the freezing lives.
Breathe out slowly. Draw the senses in like a tortoise drawing in its limbs. Let the breath slow and the shoulders settle.
Now open the senses again, one at a time, without taking them to yourself. Let the eyes see. Let the ears hear. Let the skin feel the chair. And ask quietly: where in these is the one who is afraid?
See yourself beginning the task. Watch the hands move, the voice speak, the body do what it knows. Offer the result away, as you would put a letter in the post: done, and no longer yours.
If pleasure or discomfort arises, let it touch the mind. Notice the one it does not touch.
Now choose a short formula of your own, three or four words: I do; I let go, or the work, not the prize. Say it silently three times. This is your mantra of resignation.
Rehearse rising to act: the doubts cleared, the hands steady, as Arjuna took up his bow. Calm, and fully engaged, as if in a deep and easy sleep.
(Silence: one minute.)
Let the image fade. Feel the chair and the floor. Breathe more fully.
I will count from one to five; on five the eyes open, alert and ready. One, breath full. Two, hands and feet your own. Three, the room around you. Four, a deep breath and a stretch. Five, eyes open. Here. Now.
Say your name, the day and the place. Then do one small real action, stand, pour water, write one line, with the same evenness. Use your formula before you begin the task itself.