Action Without "Mine"
Read slowly, aloud or from a recording; ten to fifteen minutes. Use it the day before, or an hour before, a demanding task.
Before you begin. This practice rehearses a demanding action without the weight of "I" and "mine". It is suitable for most adults. If you have a dissociative disorder or episodes of feeling unreal, practise only with a clinician. Sit upright, feet on the floor. Never practise while driving or operating anything.
How to return at any moment. Open your eyes, press your feet into the floor, and say your name and what you are about to do.
Close your eyes. Let the breath slow. Breathe out three times, a little longer each time.
Bring to mind the task in front of you. See where it will happen. See the people there.
Notice what gathers around it. This is mine. My reputation. My result. Notice pride, if it is there, and fear of losing. Let them be seen. They are the first triad, Dāma, Vyāla and Kaṭa, and you are not going to fight them. Only notice them.
Now let a second making happen. Before any action, let this settle in: the body is an instrument. It will do its work. Awareness is not the body, and it does not need defending.
Rest in that for a few breaths.
Now rehearse the task, slowly, in imagination. Only this moment of it. Then the next moment. No past behind it, no future ahead of it. Let the hands, the voice, the steps do what they know. You are present. You need not count yourself the doer.
Notice what fear does when I and another soften. Notice that the others in the scene are as human as you, and as mortal.
Let the rehearsal reach its end. And then let the scene go out, like a lamp in a still wind. Nothing carried forward. No smoke.
Now come back. Feel your weight on the chair, your feet on the floor, your hands. Say inwardly your own name. Say inwardly what you have decided to do, and know that the decision is yours, and that you answer for it.
I will count from one to five. One: breathe in fully. Two: move fingers and toes. Three: roll the shoulders. Four: lift the head. Five: eyes open, fully alert.
Say your name, today's date and where you are. Name three things you can see. If you feel at all distant, repeat the count and walk a few steps before you begin the task.