Blessing and Curse Before Brahmā
Read slowly, aloud; about fifteen minutes.
Before you begin. This practice gives shape to two inner voices. Do not use it alone if you have a dissociative disorder, hear voices, or have a psychotic illness; work with a clinician. If one voice becomes overwhelming, open your eyes and use the return below. Sit upright in a safe place; never practise while driving.
How to return at any moment. Say the date aloud, press your feet into the floor, count from one to five and open your eyes.
Sit, and let the body become still, like the hermit under his tree. Let the breath slow.
Bring to mind a wish you have pursued with great effort. See it granted, as the boon was granted: the thing itself, here.
Now notice two voices about this wish. One blesses it. One curses it. Let each take a shape. Perhaps one is bright, the other dark. Let them stand a little apart.
Let them speak. Let each say why it is right. You need not take a side.
Now take them together to a wise presence, someone or something you trust. Let them bow, and each tell its case.
Hear the arbiter say: let each enter the heart of the other. Watch the Blessing go into the Curse and come out knowing it. Watch the Curse go into the Blessing. Notice what each has learned.
Ask quietly: which came first? Which have I fostered more? Let the answer come without forcing.
Choose the blessing you will cultivate. Feel it take root, like a seed in damp earth. Resolve to water it each day.
Now see the wish fulfilled inside a single room, the whole earth drawn as a map on the walls. Look around. Notice what is still wanted. Notice who is in the next room.
(Silence: one minute.)
One. Feel the breath.
Two. Feel your hands and feet.
Three. Hear the room.
Four. Take a full breath and stretch.
Five. Open your eyes, fully alert.
Now orient, unlike the hermit who woke asking what time is this: say the day and date, the time, roughly how long you sat, and where you are. Name three things you can see. If you feel unclear, close your eyes for a moment and return again, slowly.